This blog summarizes pretty much who I am

I don’t like opening up to people. It’s something that I actually despise doing. I am much more of a listener than a talker. I’d rather keep my issues within myself before I tell any one how I am feeling. Maybe I do this because I would rather not put my problems onto someone else, but I am learning by doing that actually hurts me a lot more than it would anyone else.

I’ve come to realize that I am a very complex person. & when it comes to the way I feel, I find it very hard to articulate myself. Probably in the fear that the person that I am opening up to won’t understand… or maybe I don’t want them to understand. This is probably why I am so emotional. Whoever I decide to tell should be prepared for some water works because along with the story comes with plenty of tears. Another thing I should probably work on.

Sheesh, these past few weeks have really taught me a lot about who I am. I’ve been ignoring it, but now that I have finally come to the realization I see a whole lot clearer.

If you’re going to pray about it, don’t worry about it. If you’re going to worry about it, don’t pray about it.

This explains why I love Pocahontas so much :)

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This is a cool blog to follow

I wrote something similar last night, but this is almost the seal on the envelope.

A minor fight happened in my suite today, but nothing that can’t be resolved through good friends talking about the issues they might have with another person. But, when this comes up w/ the people I live with… could be the end of a friendships that happened so quickly. Its almost like a tragic story.

We rose to the top together, with many issues that we just left unresolved. We built our friendship with sand and with one soft wind could destroy everything we labored for.

I saw it from the beginning, & instead of trying to replace the sand with concrete I let it build. Watching it slowly but surely trickling away. Together we took hit by hit, I was amazed when this castle that we were building didn’t fall. The problem wasn’t the outside—the problem was the inner workings.

And today was the start of the demise. At least I think, & so far all of my predictions of this tragedy has come to life. True colors come out, we realize how people act, and honestly we see who is real and who isn’t. It’s really a shame because I am not just an outsider looking in.. I am a part of the party. I guess a part of the problem. My passion for others might be taken for anger or hostility, but I wish they would understand the care that I have for them. But I can’t continue to put myself in these types of situations where I continue to be hurt.

My words are probably a little too dramatic, my story too dramatized. But this is how I think when I am brought down to a place like this. I’m not saying that none of us will end up not being ‘friends’, but others might not be as lucky.

I just wanted it to be clear that I am Just about done.

I am so upset right now, & the only place I can really express that is on tumblr. Without getting accused of subtweeting or creating fb beef. I just do not understand people.

Why are you leaving me out of something I paid for though? & trying to treat me like I don’t know whats going on or like I’m stupid. But I’m supposed to be your friend right, & the person you are hanging out with half the time you cant even stand. But okay.

I was just under the impression that when you have friends you are supposed to treat them a certain way, but I guess again I was wrong. I don’t have money to waste like that—& they better believe I will not be doing this for a while. At least not with them & their sketchy ways.

Learning a lot about people here at St. John’s & the more I find out the how people operate, I guess the better I will be in life. My strategies will be perfected & I will not let any one get over on me again. This may not be a major issue, but the smallest actions speaks louder than my IPod on maximum volume.

I’m done. I’ve had enough. & when people start to notice it will be a little too late.

Alexa, out.

LOVE Johnny Depp :)

How many times you can tell somebody something over & over again—yet they don’t get it.

Until they get hurt in the worst way possible do your words finally hit them, & they realize they should of listened to you the entire time.

Yeah happens to me all the time, when will my friends learn to listen to my advice. If your not gonna take it then don’t ask! But then again, I like helping people so I guess its okay.

I’m glad everything worked out for you!

I don’t want to skip class, but I am in so much pain right now I might!

But I’m paying way to much to miss a class I have once a week so, I’m just going to have to push through the pain.

The trials and tribulations of being a women!